I have truly found it difficult to do anything these days that feel like home. Sing. Write. Post. I just want to thank everyone who has reached out to me during my hiatus. Everything makes me cry. There is a part of me that is very bruised and I am doing my best to understand why. I truly don’t like to not practice what I preach, so I am taking the time to regroup spiritually. I am taking the time to consult, to listen before speaking and to just be. To be in this space until I have learned and grown from it. Sometimes it is important to give our minds and our bodies what it needs in order to move forward.
I am taking this time to be grateful and just not require anything more from anyone or over extend myself. But to do what I can and pat myself on the back for doing it. So if I get through four practice questions and I get three correct, I will commend myself for it. I will not beat myself up for not being able to focus long and hard enough to get through a whole test. One step at a time, one day at a time one breath at a time. Thank you for respecting my space at this time. I know some of you who have contacted me missing your daily dose of encouragement.
Unfortunately, I’ve been missing the encouragement too. I forgot how to push myself, love myself and appreciate myself when no one else is. In fact the only reason why I am writing this today is because I wanted to speak the action into existence. I no longer wanted to feel discouraged but to feel empowered. Today, my mother let me know that she packed her travel journal with her as she is going on an adventure to Jerusalem and Greece. A journal I gifted her during or family secret santa. I’m going through a tough time financially and it was all I can afford. She let me know it was one of the best gifts I could share with her. It brought tears to my eyes yet again, because she was taking charge of her healing process while I was neglecting mine. I promise to share the things that I’ve learned during this hiatus, lately I’ve been feeling just too much pain to do it. I appreciate you all for allowing me to just be.
Love and Light,
Raina
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